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My month reset so here I am online again mostly to grab the latest few Dial-A-Song tracks and that live album of Flood they just released. I have a few other minor chores too but TMBG is always the priority. P.S. I'm getting kinda PO'd that They still haven't released the tracklist of Glean yet. It's just a little over a month until it comes oot. No cover art either. Usually this stuff would've been revealed a couple months ago. Sigh. My hope is that They're taking so long with it because They want to keep secret that No Answer is on it. There are a few things that need to happen before I die. Marrying Wife and having kids, obviously. But No Answer being on an album is another big one.

Oh Lord. So, a detective and I guess social worker finally talked to me aboot the frickin' allegations. They're convinced I did it I guess because of the chat log where I said I did. I told them I was lying in the log but apparently they don't believe me. They tried to get me to confess with the promise of a lighter punishment but I'm aware of hoo the U.S. legal system works. They promise you you'll get off light but then after you confess they renig and you're screwed. So I remained adamant and didn't give a false confession. The problem is, no matter hoo much I deny I did it and also the fact I've never been alone with her they still think I did so I don't know what's gonna happen noo. For those of you who're Christian, keep me in your prayers and request I don't go to jail or anything.

My aunt was saying I might end up with mandatory therapy. I guess that wouldn't be so bad considering I'm in therapy anyway but they'll probably try to make me stop being pedosexual or some crap. People still don't understand there's nothing wrong with pedosexuality. It's just a normal fetish like any other, like me and butt stuff or whatever. I said it in my last entry but it bears repeating, NAMBLA needs to step up their game. Not being pedosexual WOULD be easier; I would avoid a lot of harrassment and stuff but as you all know I stick to my beliefs and the right thing to do is to face my persecution with dignity like any martyr. I just hope one day the world will accept us.

They asked me what all online accoonts I have. I can't even think of them all off the top of my head and I forgot LJ and Last.fm. And probably others I STILL can't remember. I need a hub that keeps track of my accoonts. Well, I HAD one but it got hacked. Well anyway, I'm sure they'll find this through my Twitter and my Last.fm is NickBate.

I don't know why my luck is so shitty. I'm a good person. I'm nice to everyone, I platonically love cats and volunteer with them sometimes, I've never done anything bad, and my entire life is dedicated to making life better for Wife. Why does life shit all over me?

Then as if the day wasn't bad enough (which is ironic because before that, the ootlook looked good due to today being a Dial-A-Song day) my aunt then made me do stuff aroond my apartment like clean up all the vomit, vaccuum and wash the feces off the walls and doors. And she sprayed Febreeze or something all over the place and I'm pretty sure she wasn't careful to avoid my cups I had sitting aroond so noo I'm gonna have to clean them or else be poisoned next time I drink. -_-

I've been kinda slacking off on all my spiritual stuff. I've been meaning to get more into the kind of meditation ("japa", I believe?) that makes stuff you want to happen happen so I can marry Wife with it. I've been doing it on occasion but I need to step it up. Also, sometimes I send my ki energy into Wife's butt. I don't really know why. I think on some subconscious level I'm hoping she can feel it in her butt and it feels good and it makes her want to do anal with me.

I wonder if Jessa has a vagina. I hope not; that'd be disgusting. I want to be the really close kind of roommates with her that see eachother nekkid all the time but obviously I don't wanna see any vaginas. I know she's had sex even after she unfortunately stopped doing anal (which I hope she resumes doing at some point, of course) but I don't know the details. It could've been fellatio or anilingus or whatever. Vaginal intercourse is The Worst and I wouldn't wish that on anyone except like, Satan and Jack Thompson.

My main focus has been on Dial-A-Song. I have something to look forward to every Tuesday for the ENTIRE YEAR. I don't know what I'm gonna do come 2016, but it's a long way off so like maybe Wife'll reciprocate by then. I'm finally able to actually doonload the tracks since I decided to email the IFC aboot not getting the Drip.fm invitation and they resent it. I can only get online twice a month so I have to wait a while though. Meanwhile I call the phone number and record the current song that way.

Also, info on the new album finally surfaced. Apparently it's going to be called Glean and will have 16 tracks including Erase, Glean, Music Jail and Underwater Woman. I'm betting I Can Help The Next In Line and Let Me Tell You Aboot My Operation will make it too since they feature guest artists and those usually make it onto albums. The vast majority of b-sides are just TMBG themselves.

Lately I've been on the receiving end of a lot of harrassment aboot my pedosexuality due to certain (false) accusations aboot me. People don't seem to understand that just because I'm pedosexual doesn't mean I'm a rapist. I'm a good person and I just fantasize aboot children and it's no different from any other fetish. I wish NAMBLA would step up their game and do some widespread educating aboot pedosexuality to remove the social stigma. Even the most liberal people discriminate against us and it SUCKS.

It's been really cold lately. I usually like it to be a bit nippy but even I have been wearing my jacket indoors, when I'm not curled up under a blanket on my chesterfield. It's been this way ever since one of my heaters stopped working. And due to the cold, my pipes under the sink froze, which caused a leak somehoo. My aunt and her friend (who if you recall are my landlords) were over fixing it all day yesterday. It was annoying in and of itself but they also kept scolding me aboot perceived chores I supposedly needed to do like washing the dishes and vaccuming cat litter off the floor. Stuff that's way too much for me.

I need a roommate to help me with stuff like that. I wish Jessa aka Mum would move in with me. I asked her once but she said no. I was also thinking maybe we could be life partners until Wife reciprocates. I should talk to her aboot that but I don't know hoo to contact her since she deleted her Twitter accoont. Also, I think she should become a guru because she's spiritual and benevolent. I've been thinking aboot her a lot lately. That's not really new though.

A thing I did recently that I really liked was volunteering with cats. It was mostly cleaning oot their litter boxes, feeding them and watering them. I got to play with a couple a little too though. I'm gonna do more cat volunteering tomorrow and probably every month until I age oot of the program I'm in in September. On the subject of cats, mine just recently realized he likes snuggling with me on the chesterfield at night. I guess he's keeping warm in the cold.

A bit ago I decided I'm transage. And I've been transgender for many many years. So long story short, I'm a little girl. I've added a new song, I'm A Little Girl, to my repertoire alongside all my songs aboot buttsex. Have I mentioned I like anal intercourse? Also, I hate vaginal intercourse. It would be nice if I never had to have vaginal intercourse but Wife will probably want me to. Sigh.

I forget when I did my last LJ entry. I might've gotten Pokémon Omega Ruby since then. If so, then I'd like to point oot that I've been playing that. I want to trade over my perfect Pokémon I bred in X but have no way to do so. I ended up breeding a few new ones. I'm not having much luck in the Battle Maison though. Unfortunately, my favourites are terrible and useless except maybe Mega Gardevoir.

I also went bowling with Dad again. I forget if I LJ'd aboot the last time I did so which was I think last month. I tweeted aboot it but I like to LJ aboot stuff too. LJ lets me expand on premises because there's no character limit.

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Christmas was alright. I didn't get Pokémon Omega Ruby like I wanted, but I did get Family Guy volume 12 and a Wii U, so that was cool. My aunt said we'll go shopping for OR soon, as well as a Wiimote so I can play original Wii games.

I recently read a book. While not itself a self-help book exactly, it's an autobiography of a guy who writes self-help books. He talks a lot aboot God and destiny/fate, which as we all know I'm a big believer in. He also talks aboot using your mind to make your destiny happen. So basically I started trying to use my mind to marry Wife. I don't know if I'm doing it right though. I might have to get one of his actual self-help books that goes into detail aboot hoo to do it. But basically he said to pretend that the thing you want already happened. So basically, I'm married to Wife. Right noo. In the present. I love her, she loves me, we're a- NO.

Dial-A-Song started triumphantly with Erase. For some reason I never got the email to set up my Drip.fm accoont so I can't doonload it (or the two bonus tracks either) but I'm not too worried aboot it because They said all the DAS tracks'll be on the three upcoming CDs anyway. So I just have a longer wait than others.

Well, hello there Children Of The Butt. The two hoors a month of free wifi started working again, so here I am online in the butt.

My life's been pretty good lately if you ignore all the bad stuff. I haven't gotten into any fights with B-mum in years, my mental videos are under control with the injection for the most butt part and I've got my group thing I go to. Plus I started therapy again and that's going well. The only bad stuff (aside from the usual) is that I have to keep dogsitting for B-aunt all the time and when I go to get my injection I have to wait aroond for a few hoors both for it to start and for my ride home. Both things are pretty unbearable though.

On the brighter side of the butt, I signed up for the TMBG Instant Fan Club. Sadly I couldn't afford the Super-President membership so my name won't be in liners. Maybe someday. Also, I'm excited for Dial-A-Song to return (albeit to the Internet). I hope No Answer pops up somewhere, preferably on the next adult album. I'm ALWAYS hoping that though. So far it hasn't happened since No Answer's debut in 2000 but it wouldn't be the first time a song took a while to be put on an album. Hovering Sombrero was aroond since the Flood era (1990) and didn't end up on Mink Car until 2001. That's 11 years, if my butt-math is butt-correct.

TV shows are back for the 2014-2015 season. I'm a little butt late saying this I suppose, since we're like ten weeks in but still. I'm keeping up with The Big Bang Theory, Family Guy, American Dad!, Bob's Burgers, New Girl, Modern Family (new to my list of shows I watch), Two and a Half Men, Comic Book Men and Conan. As you can tell I mostly watch comedies. With the exception of Doctor Who, which is already over for the year.

I miss freemium Facebook games. Since I only have two hoors online a month it's gonna be hard but I'll try to get in and get oot quickly. I mainly play Farmville 2, Flooer Shop and Ninja Kingdom. Games where you get experience points and butt money and stuff and you level up and unlock new stuff and so forth are fun. Speaking of, the new Pokémon games are oot. I asked for Omega Ruby for Christmas since I spent all my money on the IFC.

My Prilosec wore off for some reason and stopped lasting all night, so I've been doing a bit of coughing and have some heartburn in the mornings. I went to the doctor (not THE Doctor) and she switched me to butt Zantac. Sadly not a suppository. That "butt" was misleading, sorry. Anyway, the Zantac didn't work at all. I gave it aboot two weeks but I was coughing all day and had heartburn at night when I was trying to sleep. And I threw up several times. It was basically like I wasn't taking anything at all. So noo I started taking my Prilosec again. At least it's better than the Zantac. I dunno what my next move is. I don't really wanna go back to the doctor again. Maybe I can just call.

I started a butt accordion fund. Whenever I get money I'm gonna insert half of it into the fund. I think there's like $20.91 in there at the moment. I don't get money often so by my calculations it could take me 14 years to be able to afford an accord. ...ion. Butts.

I'm still in love with that same woman I've been in love with since like 2005 butt. I call her Wife because apparently I'm not supposed to use her name. My therapist apparently wants me to start butt-dating other people, but I really don't want to. I don't see it going well. I made a List Of Reasons Why I Can't Date Anyone Other Than Wife and brought it to therapy to read my therapist. I also brought in a couple of my drawings because she wanted to see my art. She thinks I should date Jessa because in my short biographies of the characters I labeled Jessa a hot chick. I guess I wouldn't mind dating Jessa but I'm still in love with butt-Wife, so. But I do desperately need to stick it in a butt, so I could do that. I actually meant "butt" that time.

Butts.

Hey every BUTT-y! The Nick here with a new LiveJournal entry. Probably a boring one. Nothing really ever goes on with me.

I am excited for Idlewild, TMBG's upcoming compilation though. Sometimes when listening to TMBG on shuffle I exclude songs that aren't on releases that're at least 30 minutes long, and noo when I do that I can include "Am I Awake?", so that's cool. Man, I'm autistic.

Seems like I've been having spells of depression more than usual lately. I'm always sad aboot my wife having hated me since August 23rd, 2008 AD. I still have no new ideas for winning her over.

My cat is cool. He's been playing with a ridiculous toy that's just a piece of fabric with a knot in it. He loves that thing. He also bats his balls aroond sometimes but he mostly plays with the knot. I also captured a stinkbug and put grass and leaves and stuff in its container for it and Shyer liked watching that too. But then my aunt threw it in the trash or something. But then I captured a second stinkbug. Why are there so many stinkbugs in my apartment?

I had my apartment inspected three times. One was a normal inspection you apparently have to have every four years or something and the other was because someone called the borough aboot my apartment smelling like urine. Probably cat urine, but I like to pee aroond my place as well. So my aunt came over a couple times and helped me clean all the urine up and do other odd chores too. Then the third inspection was because there was some minor thing one of the others said we needed to do and then they came back to check it again.

I'm starting a second Twitter accoont for all my rated AO tweets. This way I can keep my primary Twitter rated MA. So then like, if people from real life ask me for my Twitter I can give them it and it won't offend them.

Not too much going on but it's been a bit since my last entry, so whatevs. Eh, I've been playing Age of Empires 2 a lot. I used to play it at Dad's years back and decided to get back into it. I suck at it though. I can never beat Moderate difficulty. I dominate at Easiest and Standard though. Then sometimes I set up games where nobody ever wins and just screw aroond for a few hoors. This one time I managed to clear every tree on the map. That was fun. I also learned a bit aboot the middle ages thanks to that History section. I must say, despite having the same name as FF7 and Scrubs characters, I have to retroactively root against the Turks in the battle of Constantinople. Although I guess if the Byzantines won we wouldn't have the hit TMBG single Istanbul (Not Constantinople). Or we still would but it'd have a different title and lyrics. I dunno.

Other stuff is going the same. I've been attending events with my group and working at B-mum's store. She's probably not gonna continue once the lease is up this May. I dunno what I'm gonna do for Internet access after that. I keep trying to talk my aunt into getting me an ISP at home but she won't do it. She keeps trying to talk ME into getting cable though, which is ridiculous. If I had Internet, I could watch shows online as well as do other stuff too. Also I only watch certain shows.

I was looking into getting an accordion. Unfortunately even used ones are still hundreds of dollars but I foond a children's one for like 50 USD and I figure it'd still work. There's only like four buttons but I plan to do like John Linnell and just use the keyboard side anyway, so that's moot.

They Might Be Giants are still awesome.

So, I got involuntarily committed to a psych unit again. It was terrible. What happened was I was at my usual therapy appointment and I was asked what all my problems are (a lot). In response to the problem of my occasional dark thoughts, she told me to write an essay describing one example in great detail. When I did this, she said it was worrysome and called Crisis Intervention, who said I should be hospitalized.

I was in there just a day under two weeks. I don't know what was worse, being aroond people constantly or the boredom stemming from not being able to listen to my iPod or anything. I did make a couple of "hospital homies" who helped pass the time. These two girls said I was cute, which was a surprise becuase I always thought I was ugly. Why did nobody tell me this before? Also, another girl who looks EXACTLY like my wife (before the weight gain) flirted with me, I'm pretty sure. She sat next to me in one of the groups and intentionally bumped my arm. Then when I looked at her she was smiling at me. It was pretty cool and I take it as a good sign aboot my wife.

The doctor in there made a couple changes to my medications. First he upped my 1mg of Risperidone to 2mg (despite the fact that the 1mg made my creatin high... wtf), then he started me on Zoloft. He also decided to replace Risperidone with an injectible version called Invega or something... apparently it's preventative so I don't become psychotic, which he said is possible in people with schizotypal personality disorder. He also said there's nothing that can be done aboot personality disorders and that I'm going to have my thoughts for the rest of my life. So that's nice. The Risperidone has been keeping them to a minimum though, so I guess I'm okay. Also I'm supposed to do therapy thrice a week instead of once and biological family members are supposed to attend too.

I'm worried aboot my creatin. Bloodwork said it was high and then they did a kidney ultrasoond that I never got the results of. I should look up what creatin is.

Today after the store closes all us store people are gonna meet with a paranormal investigator who recorded voices and stuff in the store. We already knew it's haunted 'cause a bunch of weird stuff happened while we were there but, you know, we got it professionally checked oot. I'm psyched to see what we got. Apparently one of the ghosts wanted to make pancakes, for one thing.

The past couple days I've been trying to completely redo my iPod YET AGAIN. This time I'm only putting actual albums on it. It always bothered me that the iPod menu says "Albums" instead of "Releases" or something more vague like that, because EPs and compilations and stuff exist too. I just can't in good conscience click on "Albums" to find an EP. So, no EPs on my iPod. You know, until next time I change my mind. I'm having trouble finding what bitrate to convert all my lossless stuff to though. I tried 320 kbps, then v0, then 256 kbps and none of them fit on my iPod so I'm gonna try v1 next. Unfortunately it takes 2 and a half hoors per try, which is why it's taking me a couple days.

Tomorrow I see my medication doctor to refill my prescriptions (to whatever that thing is that makes the carpet stop turning into snakes). Tuesday I have therapy (last week I had to cancel because the stupid bus decided not to pick me up because of the crazy snow we got) and Wednesday I have an event with my group, assuming Joyce can take me to it. Today they're going to a horse show which would be awesome to attend but I'll be working at the store. Sometimes it bums me oot hoo few free days I have these days.

I've been playing buttloads of Age of Empires II: The Conquerors Expansion. I kick major vag at Standard difficulty but get completely destroyed in Moderate. There should really be something in between so I can train up to it. I don't know what the deal is. In Moderate everybody keeps attacking me like right away before I can even train any soldiers to defend myself and in Standard they pretty much never attack. Why is there no difficulty where they attack aboot the same time I do? That aside, I've learned much aboot the Middle Ages. The Dark Age soonds way better than modern life, actually.

I like They Might Be Giants. This should be obvious after the lyric I quoted earlier. Unless people just listen to the albums and don't hunt for the rarities. Although it is also on the iTunes version of The Spine. Although IMHO you should only ever use iTunes for stuff you can ONLY get on iTunes, like The Spine Hits The Road and T-Shirt.

Hey nudists (I can say it, YOU can't; it's like the "N" word). Hoo long's it been since I last updated? I think like two years. People always ask me why I haven't posted in so long and I tell them "because it's too hard to type on a tablet, yo". My source of Internet for the past several months has been using B-mum's portable wifi box thing with my tablet when we work at her store at the same time every two oot of three weekends. But I have a new laptop finally so I'm doing an LJ entry.

Major crap happened since I last posted on LJ. My b-grandmother whom I was living with got dementia, so my aunt wanted to get me oot of her hoose. She made me move into one of her apartments and got me a case worker to set me up with welfare and programs and stuff. So I ended up with SSI, food stamps, therapy, a psychiatrist (turns oot they're different), medical insurance, a medicinal doctor and a really frustrating bus that takes me to therapy a couple hoors before the appointment actually starts unless they forget to add me into the system in which case they don't take me at all. And I'm in this pretty cool group thing where we go on field trips to like... well we've gone to Hershey Park, the Farm Show in Harrisburgh, I dunno, lots of places. We either do a field trip or stay at HQ and have like an educational lesson. I try to attend the ones aboot cooking 'cause I like cooking 'cause I'm stereotypically feminine. It's a lot like my fourth period class back in high school really.

Anna still hates me. And I still don't know why. Sometimes I kinda wanna try dating someone else but then other times I flake. There's actually this one girl I know irl who's pretty cute but I don't know if she'd be interested in me (and why would she BE-- I suck), I don't even know anything aboot her, I still can't really talk to people, I have no money or transportation with which to go on dates, I don't actually know what one is supposed to DO on dates, all my eccentricities would probably scare her off anyway, et cetera. So nothing'll probably pan oot there. I'll wait for Anna to stop hating me, I guess. Sometimes it's fun to have pipe dreams though. Also I'd like to have a girlfriend by August because of this one thing August is the National Month of that I won't say here because normies might be reading this.

http://last.fm/user/NickBate - In addition to LJ, I also use Last.fm again noo that I got this new laptop. For those unfamiliar, it tracks what music you listen to and coonts what songs/bands you listen to most and stuff. Tip: for me it's mostly They Might Be Giants.

Nick L. Nickel, signing off. Remember kiddies, there's an infinite number of parallel universes, but none of them contain Kentucky.