Wilding idly
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Hey every BUTT-y! The Nick here with a new LiveJournal entry. Probably a boring one. Nothing really ever goes on with me.

I am excited for Idlewild, TMBG's upcoming compilation though. Sometimes when listening to TMBG on shuffle I exclude songs that aren't on releases that're at least 30 minutes long, and noo when I do that I can include "Am I Awake?", so that's cool. Man, I'm autistic.

Seems like I've been having spells of depression more than usual lately. I'm always sad aboot my wife having hated me since August 23rd, 2008 AD. I still have no new ideas for winning her over.

My cat is cool. He's been playing with a ridiculous toy that's just a piece of fabric with a knot in it. He loves that thing. He also bats his balls aroond sometimes but he mostly plays with the knot. I also captured a stinkbug and put grass and leaves and stuff in its container for it and Shyer liked watching that too. But then my aunt threw it in the trash or something. But then I captured a second stinkbug. Why are there so many stinkbugs in my apartment?

I had my apartment inspected three times. One was a normal inspection you apparently have to have every four years or something and the other was because someone called the borough aboot my apartment smelling like urine. Probably cat urine, but I like to pee aroond my place as well. So my aunt came over a couple times and helped me clean all the urine up and do other odd chores too. Then the third inspection was because there was some minor thing one of the others said we needed to do and then they came back to check it again.

I'm starting a second Twitter accoont for all my rated AO tweets. This way I can keep my primary Twitter rated MA. So then like, if people from real life ask me for my Twitter I can give them it and it won't offend them.

eh
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Not too much going on but it's been a bit since my last entry, so whatevs. Eh, I've been playing Age of Empires 2 a lot. I used to play it at Dad's years back and decided to get back into it. I suck at it though. I can never beat Moderate difficulty. I dominate at Easiest and Standard though. Then sometimes I set up games where nobody ever wins and just screw aroond for a few hoors. This one time I managed to clear every tree on the map. That was fun. I also learned a bit aboot the middle ages thanks to that History section. I must say, despite having the same name as FF7 and Scrubs characters, I have to retroactively root against the Turks in the battle of Constantinople. Although I guess if the Byzantines won we wouldn't have the hit TMBG single Istanbul (Not Constantinople). Or we still would but it'd have a different title and lyrics. I dunno.

Other stuff is going the same. I've been attending events with my group and working at B-mum's store. She's probably not gonna continue once the lease is up this May. I dunno what I'm gonna do for Internet access after that. I keep trying to talk my aunt into getting me an ISP at home but she won't do it. She keeps trying to talk ME into getting cable though, which is ridiculous. If I had Internet, I could watch shows online as well as do other stuff too. Also I only watch certain shows.

I was looking into getting an accordion. Unfortunately even used ones are still hundreds of dollars but I foond a children's one for like 50 USD and I figure it'd still work. There's only like four buttons but I plan to do like John Linnell and just use the keyboard side anyway, so that's moot.

They Might Be Giants are still awesome.

I was hospitalized.
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So, I got involuntarily committed to a psych unit again. It was terrible. What happened was I was at my usual therapy appointment and I was asked what all my problems are (a lot). In response to the problem of my occasional dark thoughts, she told me to write an essay describing one example in great detail. When I did this, she said it was worrysome and called Crisis Intervention, who said I should be hospitalized.

I was in there just a day under two weeks. I don't know what was worse, being aroond people constantly or the boredom stemming from not being able to listen to my iPod or anything. I did make a couple of "hospital homies" who helped pass the time. These two girls said I was cute, which was a surprise becuase I always thought I was ugly. Why did nobody tell me this before? Also, another girl who looks EXACTLY like my wife (before the weight gain) flirted with me, I'm pretty sure. She sat next to me in one of the groups and intentionally bumped my arm. Then when I looked at her she was smiling at me. It was pretty cool and I take it as a good sign aboot my wife.

The doctor in there made a couple changes to my medications. First he upped my 1mg of Risperidone to 2mg (despite the fact that the 1mg made my creatin high... wtf), then he started me on Zoloft. He also decided to replace Risperidone with an injectible version called Invega or something... apparently it's preventative so I don't become psychotic, which he said is possible in people with schizotypal personality disorder. He also said there's nothing that can be done aboot personality disorders and that I'm going to have my thoughts for the rest of my life. So that's nice. The Risperidone has been keeping them to a minimum though, so I guess I'm okay. Also I'm supposed to do therapy thrice a week instead of once and biological family members are supposed to attend too.

I'm worried aboot my creatin. Bloodwork said it was high and then they did a kidney ultrasoond that I never got the results of. I should look up what creatin is.

Ghosts and stuff
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Today after the store closes all us store people are gonna meet with a paranormal investigator who recorded voices and stuff in the store. We already knew it's haunted 'cause a bunch of weird stuff happened while we were there but, you know, we got it professionally checked oot. I'm psyched to see what we got. Apparently one of the ghosts wanted to make pancakes, for one thing.

The past couple days I've been trying to completely redo my iPod YET AGAIN. This time I'm only putting actual albums on it. It always bothered me that the iPod menu says "Albums" instead of "Releases" or something more vague like that, because EPs and compilations and stuff exist too. I just can't in good conscience click on "Albums" to find an EP. So, no EPs on my iPod. You know, until next time I change my mind. I'm having trouble finding what bitrate to convert all my lossless stuff to though. I tried 320 kbps, then v0, then 256 kbps and none of them fit on my iPod so I'm gonna try v1 next. Unfortunately it takes 2 and a half hoors per try, which is why it's taking me a couple days.

Tomorrow I see my medication doctor to refill my prescriptions (to whatever that thing is that makes the carpet stop turning into snakes). Tuesday I have therapy (last week I had to cancel because the stupid bus decided not to pick me up because of the crazy snow we got) and Wednesday I have an event with my group, assuming Joyce can take me to it. Today they're going to a horse show which would be awesome to attend but I'll be working at the store. Sometimes it bums me oot hoo few free days I have these days.

I've been playing buttloads of Age of Empires II: The Conquerors Expansion. I kick major vag at Standard difficulty but get completely destroyed in Moderate. There should really be something in between so I can train up to it. I don't know what the deal is. In Moderate everybody keeps attacking me like right away before I can even train any soldiers to defend myself and in Standard they pretty much never attack. Why is there no difficulty where they attack aboot the same time I do? That aside, I've learned much aboot the Middle Ages. The Dark Age soonds way better than modern life, actually.

I like They Might Be Giants. This should be obvious after the lyric I quoted earlier. Unless people just listen to the albums and don't hunt for the rarities. Although it is also on the iTunes version of The Spine. Although IMHO you should only ever use iTunes for stuff you can ONLY get on iTunes, like The Spine Hits The Road and T-Shirt.

Hello new accoont
kydontexist
Hey nudists (I can say it, YOU can't; it's like the "N" word). Hoo long's it been since I last updated? I think like two years. People always ask me why I haven't posted in so long and I tell them "because it's too hard to type on a tablet, yo". My source of Internet for the past several months has been using B-mum's portable wifi box thing with my tablet when we work at her store at the same time every two oot of three weekends. But I have a new laptop finally so I'm doing an LJ entry.

Major crap happened since I last posted on LJ. My b-grandmother whom I was living with got dementia, so my aunt wanted to get me oot of her hoose. She made me move into one of her apartments and got me a case worker to set me up with welfare and programs and stuff. So I ended up with SSI, food stamps, therapy, a psychiatrist (turns oot they're different), medical insurance, a medicinal doctor and a really frustrating bus that takes me to therapy a couple hoors before the appointment actually starts unless they forget to add me into the system in which case they don't take me at all. And I'm in this pretty cool group thing where we go on field trips to like... well we've gone to Hershey Park, the Farm Show in Harrisburgh, I dunno, lots of places. We either do a field trip or stay at HQ and have like an educational lesson. I try to attend the ones aboot cooking 'cause I like cooking 'cause I'm stereotypically feminine. It's a lot like my fourth period class back in high school really.

Anna still hates me. And I still don't know why. Sometimes I kinda wanna try dating someone else but then other times I flake. There's actually this one girl I know irl who's pretty cute but I don't know if she'd be interested in me (and why would she BE-- I suck), I don't even know anything aboot her, I still can't really talk to people, I have no money or transportation with which to go on dates, I don't actually know what one is supposed to DO on dates, all my eccentricities would probably scare her off anyway, et cetera. So nothing'll probably pan oot there. I'll wait for Anna to stop hating me, I guess. Sometimes it's fun to have pipe dreams though. Also I'd like to have a girlfriend by August because of this one thing August is the National Month of that I won't say here because normies might be reading this.

http://last.fm/user/NickBate - In addition to LJ, I also use Last.fm again noo that I got this new laptop. For those unfamiliar, it tracks what music you listen to and coonts what songs/bands you listen to most and stuff. Tip: for me it's mostly They Might Be Giants.

Nick L. Nickel, signing off. Remember kiddies, there's an infinite number of parallel universes, but none of them contain Kentucky.

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